My Miracle Workers

My Miracle Workers

 

 

 

Everything has its wonders, even darkness and silence, and I learn, whatever state I may be in, therein to be content.

 Helen Keller

 

Here’s a question I never thought about until  Connie Rossini at Catholics Spirituality Blogs‘ asked,

 

“What is your spiritual idiolect and how did you discover or develop it?”

She defined it for us:

 

“Everyone has an idiolect–a collection of personal speech habits that is different from anyone else’s. Have you ever thought about your spiritual idiolect? Since your soul is unique, you have a personal way of speaking to God that no one else completely shares. Today I am announcing the creation of a new blog that will help you find and fine-tune your spiritual idiolect.”

 

Though it took me a few days in prayer and waiting to hear from the Lord, I think I finally understand the question.

In the spiritual life, discovery is often a very slow and painful process. I don’t know why; it just is. I came to understand mine when the Lord reminded me of one of my childhood heroes.

 

As a young girl, the first time I saw the movie, The Miracle Worker, I remember being captivated by several things:

 

  • the terrible tragedy of being born able to see and hear, then struck at 19 months with a disease that left her deaf and blind
  • the desperation that set in because she was isolated and cut off from any understanding of language
  • the miracle of Annie Sullivan who finally taught her to communicate by spelling words into her hands

 

In a small way, like Helen, I understand what it is to feel isolated and alone, trapped in a spiritual internal darkness and silence generated by tragedies in my life over which I had no control. There’s a scene in the movie where in an attempt to teach Helen that every object has a word to identify it, Annie begins spelling the word “m-u-g”, into her hand, but in utter frustration, when Helen can’t make the connection, she throws the doll Annie had given her as a present… against the wall.   

 

Yes, there were many years as a young Christian I felt just such exasperation because I didn’t know how to translate the spiritual language of my heart.

 

One day, Helen finally made the connection to her “idiolect” as Annie, though worn by the mission she had undertaken yet sure of her passionate call to it, ran cool water over one hand while spelling it out –” w-a-t-e-r-” — in the other. The joy of that moment of awakening still brings tears to my eyes, for now I understand that Christ is the friend who came to me bringing the living water of His Word which translated my darkness into light.

 

Until I had the Scriptures in my life, I was deaf and blind…but once I had the Word as my anchor and the light of my path, the Lord sent other “miracle workers” who also spoke my idiolect; each in turn sent another friend. The Blessed Mother and the rosary became my companions and one day she sent a friend who opened a greater understanding of who I am as a child of God.

 

Upon my palm he spelled ,” P-A-X” and I was introduced to St Benedict. By love and obedience to his Holy Rule, I listen for the sweet voice of the Lord inviting me to be a laborer in His field…

 

Ora et Labora

 

He has taught me to draw from the well of prayer in the Divine Office, lectio divina, and silent contemplative prayer, striving for the monastic lifestyle as my state in life allows.

 

And I’m content in my silence now, thankful that by His grace, the Lord saw fit to be my miracle worker– sending others as well, who patiently and lovingly stayed with me, spelling words into my hands until I understood my spiritual idiolect.

 

I have engraved you on the palms of my hands

—Isaiah 49:16

 

 

+PAX

 

 

Prefer nothing to the love of Christ

 

  •  Photo: Helen Keller 1904

 

14 Comments

  1. Nancy
    Jun 21, 2013

    Oh, this is marvelous.

    • Caroline
      Jun 22, 2013

      Nancy, I can’t do anything without Him…and to this day, I wait until He spells it all out for me so I can understand. : )
      Blessings always and +

  2. Victor S E Moubarak
    Jun 22, 2013

    This is a wonderful post. Your best yet. Thank you so much for taking the time to write it.

    God bless you.

    • Caroline
      Jun 22, 2013

      Thank you, Victor…If it’s anything worthwhile. it’s His…and because of Him. : )
      Blessings always and +

  3. Patricia
    Jun 24, 2013

    Caroline, this is wonderful! You have truly understood your spiritual idolect. What peace that must give you. I love the connection between Helen and you…both called to live in silence. (That is one of my favorite movies too.) It seems impossible that with the billions of people who have lived, no two are exactly alike. Yes, it IS true…for the infinite God makes each one unique. What a blessing…and what a mystery to solve, as I go in search of my own idiolect.

    Thank you again for a truly beautiful and insightful post.
    Love and hugs…xoxo

    • Caroline
      Jun 24, 2013

      Patricia….You know, I tell people when they say “Oh, your hair looks great!”…That– that means I didn’t do it. LOL and it’s the same with writing.
      If it’s anything good, He gave it to me and I just lucked out hearing it. : )
      All the better that He did too, because I found this a really difficult question and it’s been a long journey.
      It is a mystery to solve. I’ll pray for you as you listen to His voice.

      Love always and Blessings +

  4. Theresa
    Jun 27, 2013

    Caroline…

    I LOVE the new look…it’s really beautiful. Is the pic near your house : )

    This was an excellent post. Of course, I love your reference to silence. I have been reflecting on that virtue frequently lately and how I need to practice it to an even higher degree.

    Have a blessed day.

    • Caroline
      Jun 27, 2013

      Theresa..Thank you I’m getting used to it; trying to get the front page to read better..and thankful that my son does all this for me long distance.
      I have always been moved by Helen Keller’s story..What an iron will she had in overcoming her handicaps.
      This gift of silence is something the Lord is telling me to continue to practice for– in it– is where we will hear His voice in the coming challenging days of our world.
      Blessings always and +

  5. nancy shuman
    Jun 27, 2013

    Oh gasp!!! How I LOVE the new look of your blog!!!! It’s so open and stunning and INVITING. I want to crawl right into the screen :).

    And of course I commented earlier on the fact that this post is marvelous. But now I’ve decided: it’s one of my very favorite posts/articles anywhere, by anyone. Thanks be to God.

    • Caroline
      Jun 27, 2013

      Oh Nancy, Thank you so much..The feedback on the new look has been very positive..and it’s nice to have friends drop by to say so..
      Your view on this piece means a lot to me and I’m humbled..
      Blessings always and +

  6. Nancy
    Jun 28, 2013

    I’m new to the idea of discovering my spiritual idiolect and yours is a wonderful example of how God customizes our conversation with him. I’m inspired to prayer about how to expresss my own unique language to him. I’ll be praying for you in a special way as I do this, so please pray for clarity of expression for me.

    • Caroline
      Jun 28, 2013

      Nancy, Thank you so much for stopping by and sharing your thoughts on what I considered a difficult question! I’m glad Connie challenged us to look deep and see what we might discover. : )
      Isn’t the Lord good to speak to us in a way we can best hear? Of course I will keep you in prayer as you further journey to your discovery.
      Blessings always and +

  7. Colleen
    Jun 30, 2013

    Great article. Loved your use of Helen Keller’s story.
    God bless!

    • Caroline
      Jun 30, 2013

      Thank you Colleen, for taking the time to stop by and read about my miracle worker(s)! : )
      Blessings always and +

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